After 20 years being married, I feel I've lost the initiative to keep it going with my husband. Part of it too is my own life which I'very sacrificed when I left work 17 years ago to stay home with our first born. Seven years ago, after acquiring my real estate license, I thought I was well on my way to a new beginning. But, I got pregnant with second child so once again I had to put time for my small son. In the meantime, our finances were not doing well and part time work was hard to find. My husband comes from a background of show offs. His parents have ingrained in them to live in high places or you're no good enough. Because of this mentality, my husband made decisions which affected our a ability to fulfill our financial obligations. Overall. I am back to child rearing with 5 five and a half year old son. I'm older now and have not been fortunate to find part time work. I am applying for volunteer work with the hopes of gaining experience which I lack after being away from the work force for so long. My husband works two jobs to pay for our huge fancy home. To him that's a big deal to be able to hold on to a home which takes 70% of his paycheck. Our constant struggle living from paycheck to paycheck is a stark contrast to living in this fancy home. But my husband is content because his ego is intact. He has the best, biggest looking home in the neighborhood regardless of the fact that we had to file bankruptcy 6 years ago, creditors were not paid for the materials used to build the house. His parents BTW were the architects. I can't stand his mentality. We scrimp for basically everything even food but that's fine with him as long as the mortgage is paid. I would love to see this house gone.
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